Friday, May 21, 2010

A Mary or a Martha?

At the Home of Martha and Mary "38As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. 39She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. 40But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!"

41"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, 42but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." Luke 10: 38-42

Working full time outside the home, and working full time inside the home once my day job is done leaves little time for the daily things that need to be done around the house. When I get home at the end of the day, there's always something to be done. There are usually breakfast dishes in the sink from the morning that I didn't have time to wash as we were hurrying out the door. The mail usually gets tossed on the kitchen counter until I have time to get to it. I open the important things but the other things tend to turn to clutter over time. The floors under the kitchen constantly need to be swept following any meal or snack eaten by two little ones. Basically there are days when my house just looks... a mess!

I really hate messes. It bothers me to see the dishes in the sink, or the pile of clutter on the counter, or the toothpaste in the bathroom sink. And if I lived alone without the responsibility of the world on my shoulders, my house would look in tip top shape on most days. (Just don't ask my mom if this was true when I was a teenager)!

But there is the pitter patter of sweet little feet that run around my house each day. When we all get home in the evenings, they don't care that a tornado may have come through the house. What they want is mommy. They want mommy to give them a piggy back ride. Or show me what they made in school that day. Evan wants me to bounce his baseball bouncey ball with him. Garren wants me to build a cheeseburger store out of his legos while he builds the lego cars to go through the drive through.

I once read a devotional by Proverbs 31 Ministries called The Sweet Smell of Pine Sol. It reminded me that when our kids are grown, they are not going to look back on these years and remember the sweet smell of Pine Sol. They are going to remember the time we spent with them. They will remember the times when I was a "Mary" more than the times I was a "Martha."

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I Prefer the Frog

"Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." Proverbs 31:30

Unofficially, it's been almost two and a half years that I have been single again. While the events that transpired in my life two and half years ago were the worst things that I have ever had to go through, I have no regrets because it was also one of the best things that ever happened to me because it has allowed the strength of Christ to be revealed in me and the "real" me... a child of God... has finally surfaced.

Throughout the past two and a half years, God has done a tremendous and miraculous work in my life. Now, at this stage of my life, I feel like I'm ready to take the next step of sharing life with someone again. Granted, in God's perfect timing, that could be 20 days from now or 20 years from now... I don't know. But I at least feel ready if the opportunity presented itself.

I was talking to some of my girlfriends about this and several said they were sure that one day I would truly meet my "prince charming." It's such an interesting phrase. After all, isn't that what every little girl dreams about as she is growing up? I know I surely did. And about eight years ago I was swept off my feet and did marry a very charming man, just as I had dreamed of.

But... the Bible says that charm is deceptive. A biography on Ted Bundy described that "his good looks and charm helped America's worst serial killer escape justice for years..." There are many deceptively charming people in the world.

What I'm looking for is someone who fears the Lord. There's an ol' scrapbooking quote that says "A woman's heart should be so lost in God that a man must seek Him in order to find her." And vice-versa.

I've already found prince charming... I prefer the frog.
F - Fully
R - Rely
O - on
G - God

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Strength in Weakness

"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." II Corinthians 12:9

When I was a kid, I used to like to do black crayon scratch drawings. You know... the kind where you completely color a sheet of paper with lots of bright, vibrant crayon colors. Then, when you're done, you take a black crayon and completely color over every inch of the paper that you just covered with beautiful colors. To complete, the picture, you are supposed to take a penny or something sharp and etch away at the black crayon to reveal the beautiful colors underneath. When you're done, it looks something like this:

Our lives in Christ are like those old kindergarten pictures. When we are born again, Christ lives inside of us. I think of Him as the brightly colored crayons in the child's drawing... and us as the black. He is always there, but in order for his strength to be made complete, we have to etch away the black so that His awesome power and strength can be revealed.

This is what faith is all about. Less of me. More of Christ. Sometimes I tend to get ahead of him and help him along with this life of mine that I can see. Although I can't always see the colors underneath, they are always there and will be revealed when the black is stripped away.

I keep the black crayon untouched when I try to make my own provisions rather than waiting on His clear and perfect plan. It is there. It is always there because He lives in me. It is only in my weakness, that His strength can be revealed. I have to allow the black to be etched away in order for the brilliant colors to be displayed. And what is displayed is glorious!