"Surely you desire truth in the inner parts; you teach me wisdom in the inmost place." Psalm 51:6
This is one of my favorite verses. It's been very fitting that this past week the Lord has reminded me of all the times He has provided for my every need. Even yesterday as I was listening the the Christian radio station on my way to work, they were having people call in to speak about ways in which God has provided for them or ways in which they have been able to be a blessing to others. It was very inspiring.
Today has been one of those days where I needed reminded of all of that. At first, I thought... "I really can't blog about this because I don't know the outcome yet. I don't have a story this time about how God has provided because it hasn't happened yet." But then... again on the radio... they read the verse of the day and it was from the Psalms at a time when David was crying out to God in his time of need. He was laying it all out there for God... the fear, the uncertainty, the insecurity.
David's prayers reminded me that God does not just desire my praise and thank you's. He desires truth in my inmost being. And the truth is, I was feeling worried and overwhelmed this morning. So I told God about it.
It was at this point when I heard a commercial on the radio... they are batting three for three this week!... I have no idea even what it was for. Maybe just a reminder. The speaker reminded me that it is at the end of the tree limb where the fruit is found.
This morning I was feeling at the end of my limb. Earlier this week, I discovered a $100 error in my checkbook... not to my advantage. Then my insurance premium came out... $25 more than usual. I found out they raised my rate due to a claim I submitted in December when my car was broken into. Last week I sent in a pre-payment to the surgeon who will perform my son's surgery next week. $656. My power bill was about $50 more than usual. My water bill was double. The reimbursement claim I submitted for my dependant care spending account was denied twice even though I submitted it exactly the same as I always do and have enough money in the account to cover it. My savings account is almost at rock bottom... my usual safety net. At this point, I tried to remind God that I am a single mom.
The last straw came this morning when I opened a bill from the children's hospital where my son had an xray done last week. $322. Yes, I am out at the end of the limb. I do not have a happy ending to post... yet.
Still, I wanted to post this. Not as a seperate title, but in continuation of the Providence series. One thing I know is true... God is a good provider. I sat back and thought about that and realized... I have enough money to make it through today. So far I have eaten a good breakfast and lunch, as have my kids. I have decided not to worry about tomorrow.
As I was driving to work, there was a giant snapper turtle crossing the road, causing a big traffic backup. He waddled his way across the busy road without a care in the world. He could have been run over multiple times. But he made it. I figured if God could take care of that snapper turtle, how much more will he take care of me!
Now I'm just waiting to see how "Providence 801" comes about. Stay tuned!