"Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10
This past week has been a very difficult one. Partly because of my human, fragile heart and partly because I felt so sure of God's leading in my life. But things didn't turn out like I thought they were going to. I have been asking God a lot of "why" and "I don't understand" questions. I also just felt so unsure because I feel that over the past few years, I have gotten much better at hearing and recognizing God's voice. Not as an audible sound, but often as a still small voice in my soul. And I never felt that I was walking outside of the steps He was leading me in. This just doesn't feel right.
But here I am. In a place that was unexpected. And then a couple of days ago, I heard His voice again. That same, small voice in my soul. "Be still and know that I am God." After that, I received a gift for Christmas. It was a new Bible and Bible cover. On the cover, was inscribed a verse. "Be still and know that I am God."
The next day I was changing the block calendar on my desk. I had been slacking in changing the date in the hustle and bustle of the holidays. As I changed the date, I noticed the verse printed above the numbers. "Be still and know that I am God."
Last night I was reading the Karen Kingsbury novel series that I have been reading for a while now. One of the characters, Katy Hart, was praying and God brought to her mind a verse. "Be still and know that I am God."
And then there was this morning. I read a question and answer article about a young man, probably just out of college who felt called to be a youth pastor. But nothing was opening up for him because he is unmarried and is also still young. He wrote in asking what he should do. That was not the part that intrigued me. It was the response of the person answering his question.
The writer talked about David as a shepherd boy. He said that while David was in the fields tending sheep, he was just like any other shepherd boy. One speck in the cosmos. It didn't seem that he was doing anything life changing or of ultra importance. But he was exactly where he was supposed to be. The writer stated, "Here's what is important to remember about this season: If God is who He says He is, then nothing about your life is random - nothing."
And then there was that phrase again about being still.
The article continued, "Being still and waiting might not be the favorites of present-day society, but they are still critical priorities in the Kingdom of God. This time in your life is fertile ground for God to shape Christ-like character, growing roots that have the strength to hold a tree and the fruit it bears. It may be the only way you could waste it is by wishing it away."
So, in the midst of the things I am feeling, no matter how difficult it is to muster the strength, I know I don't have to. Because my Strength is always there and He has a plan for me. So I will be still. No matter how hard that is sometimes. I will be still and know that You are God.